As an instrumentalist there came a point in my musical career where the magic and enjoyment towards playing was lost. Gone. It had played a very nice, and amazingly real disappearing act. One day I loved playing, and the next that love was gone. Where it had gone, I had no idea, all I knew was I would do anything and everything I could to avoid practicing and spend as little time playing as possible. As musicians, I believe there comes a point in your career where things just don't mesh for one reason or another. Sometimes it is due to a teacher sucking the fun and desire to play out of you, other times it is because things have seemlingly become stagnant for no appearant reason, and in certain cases it is because something is no longer challenging- though this case is the most rare out of the three because there is always something that can be learned and improved upon. Some musicians never get past the stage of lost desire and quit playing altogether, and others get past it and move into the stage of regaining the magic and desire that was lost. The questions that arises is: how is the magic, the desire to be a musician restored once lost?
There is no straight answer for this. There is no instant solution. Each individual has to find their own solution. For me it was a combination of several different things. One of the biggest factors in regaining my desire had to do with my peers. I realized I had placed myself in a group of peers to whom it didn't matter if I was talented or I sounded good or if I played at all and that was not something I wanted to continue. The first step I took to fix this was to place myself in a different group of peers. Once I had done that my outlook on playing my instrument was completely changed. I wanted to play, not because everyone around me wanted to play, but because of the encouragment I got from them. The second factor in restoring my desire to play was a change of instructors. I was gaining nothing from the instructor I had been studying under and because of that I didn't want to play or practice. Once I changed instructors it was like a whole new world was opened up to me. I suddenly enjoyed practicing and wanted to practice as much as possible. The desire, the enjoyment, the love was suddenly back. What had been lost was now returned to me. It was amazing! The individual solution to regain the desire to play has to be searched for individually and for each individual it will be different, but once it is found it comes with this amazing feeling. Find the desire once more and feel fulfilled.
15 September 2007
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Amen.
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